Recently, I felt like Hei Hei, the chicken in the Disney movie Moana. I didn’t know if I was going left or right. I didn’t know if I wanted to be in the boat or walk the gangplank.
Life is hard and, at times, unfair.
I kept praying, Lord, show me the way and guide me. My heart hurt. I struggled, but I kept praying for the Lord to help me get where I needed to be, to keep my eyes on him, and put him first despite my pain. I knew the Lord could guide my life where he could work in me just as he guided the people in the bible.
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes; fear the Lord, and depart from evil. It shall be health to thy navel and marrow to thy bones. Proverbs 3:7
I praised the Lord and thanked him for what he has done for me and what he will do for me in the future.
Our pastor recently used the scriptures in Psalm 130 that affirmed what I had been telling myself most of July.
I wait for the LORD, my soul doth wait, and in his word do I hope. My soul waiteth for the LORD more than they that watch for the morning. I say, more than they that watch for the morning. Let Israel hope in the LORD; for with the LORD there is mercy, and with him is plenteous redemption. Psalm 130:5-7
Sometimes we wonder why we are still in the same season or the same place in our spiritual walk with the Lord. It is because we have become complacent and comfortable. We do just enough to feel like a Christian. God wants all of us -- our minds, heart, and soul. He does not want lukewarm Christians. We do not grow when we hold on to our sorrow and pain. We grow when we give it all to the Lord. We seek his guidance and put him foremost in our minds, heart, and soul.
I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot. So then, because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spew thee out of my mouth. Revelation 3:15-16
I sought guidance continuously in July for God to guide me. I listened to godly individuals minister on the internet and television. I read and studied my bible because I knew the devil would use my sorrow and heartache to dissuade me from seeking comfort in Jesus. Satan will use our feelings of loneliness, grief, anger, sadness, and other negativity to depress and paralyze us from seeking God and his goodness for our lives.
When it seemed like my sorrow was getting too much, I could feel arms around me, and there would be a light in the darkness of my mind. I knew God was with me. He said if we seek him, we will not be alone, and he will not forsake us in our time of sorrow and trouble like Job; we must trust him and have faith even when we feel like we are lying in the mud while it rains cats and dogs. Jesus will be our lifeline.
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